pixelated.me

"Your whole life, people are gonna ask you to be weak. They're gonna practically beg you. But all anyone really wants is for you to be strong." - The Hottest State

two years ago i met a woman who, in breaking my heart, would teach me that lesson.
When i was with her, i allowed myself to be vulnerable, to strip down to my trembling broken self.
I saw everyone of her fears when i looked into her eyes. I could see the beautiful girl who wanted to be brilliant and was terrified of being shallow. I saw to the very core of her and because of it i thought i loved her and because of it i let her see just how broken i was then and there.

But people don't want weakness, they want strength, quiet strength, subtle and open perhaps, but strength.
That subtle balance between openness and fortitude.

Things ended with her, as these things tend to do, and not long ago she suggested we meet for coffee. I confess that whilst appealing, seeing her would also be like walking into that room of people that saw you show up naked to school in your dream.